It's over...for me
It's over...for me
I had just finished my last final at Connecticut College, and I was alone at my desk. I couldn't go celebrate with my friends, my family was asleep. Late at night, about 11:30PM.
Maryland, United States
So...that was it. I had just finished my last coursework at Connecticut College. Normally, I would have walked out of one of the testing centers on campus, looked out at Tempel Green, and said my own goodbyes to the campus before going to celebrate with all the wonderful people I had met along the way. Instead, it was late at night, and I was alone. After 3.75 years of regular college, and .25 years of online college, I was finally done. I wanted to be happy, but I guess I just felt cheated in some way. Which I know it ridiculous because of course we are all staying home to save lives, which I completely support. At the same time, April and May were going to be some amazing times with my friends, and that was all gone. So, not only was I done with my schooling, but I was also saying goodbye to a plethora of experiences I would never have again. I didn't get to go hug the friends I had made since day one, I didn't get to go buy way too many snacks at Cro. I had to reach out to the people I loved digitally, and that kind of sucked. As much as I appreciate all the college has done to make online learning a possibility (and for the most part they have done a great job), it just doesn't make up for the lack of social time with friends. So, as I sat there at my desk I just felt...confused. The sense of elation was matched with severe melancholy. I guess what I'm trying to say is...I don't want to go.
Anonymous, “It's over...for me,” Connecticut College COVID-19 Archive, accessed July 3, 2022, http://learcenter.digital.conncoll.edu/covid19/items/show/478.